Tuesday, March 17, 2026

Chapter 3 - Forever: Architects of Creation

On the third day, the boy awoke.

It was an April morning. He looked toward the window and noticed a bird’s nest resting in the bush outside his bedroom. Spring had arrived. All seemed right in the world. Yet something within him stirred. He could not escape the weight of his thoughts—the lingering question of what had unfolded in his conscious dream the night before.

He closed his eyes.

At once, his faith returned. He saw the silent Earth, the waiting heavens—everything poised for motion, for meaning, for the next chapter in the story of Forever.

Rewinding the hands of time within his mind, he drifted backward. He examined the path that had led him here—the sequence of thoughts, events, and decisions that formed this present moment. He questioned the structure of his life, the order of cause and effect, and the deeper nature of reality itself.

Was the world something he was given… or something he had made?

Sitting there on that April morning, he wondered whether the world would reject him—or whether it would trust the dream he had seen and made in his mind.

His mind continued to move backward, further still, tracing yesterday into memory. He reflected on the unfolding of his experiences, as if guided by a Creator—and yet, he now questioned whether that Creator had always been… himself.

Then came the next chapter.

This time, it was not darkness or struggle against some unseen opposer. It was light. Motion. Beginning.

As the day wore on, the boy returned to his bed. He sank into the quiet embrace of his mattress, preparing once again to enter the space within. His eyes closed, and his awareness shifted inward—to the all-seeing eye behind thought itself.

One word escaped his lips:

“Create.”

Instantly, he returned to the world within his mind.

It was still dark.

He exhaled.

The breath of life moved outward—and with it came division. Light separated from darkness. Day from night. Motion from stillness. The first order of his universe emerged.

In the days that followed, the boy and his architects—the seven angels—set to work. Together, they formed the heavens and the Earth, establishing the laws, the rhythm, the mathematics of existence.

One by one, they approached each silent celestial body.

The boy stood above it all, watching through the great looking glass, as his angels moved like streaks of light—faster than perception, faster than time itself. They prepared each world, each structure, each orbit.

And when they were finished, they called for his breath.

For it was his breath that sealed creation.

It was his breath that made it real.

After shaping the Earth, they turned outward—to the nine planets of the solar system. One by one, they were set into motion. Balance was established. Harmony achieved.

And so, the system was complete.

The boy returned to the present.

He sat in the quiet of his room, wondering what the world beyond his mind might think of him as he wrote these words. He longed for a sign—for something beyond himself to answer back.

Silence.

He lay down once more.

Closed his eyes.

“CREATE.”

Again, he entered the matrix of his own making—light weaving around him like a living web. He moved through it, weightless, until he emerged into the world he had built.

His architects stood before him.

“Would you like to see your creation?” they asked.

“Yes,” the boy replied, unable to contain his excitement.

He looked to the left.

It was good.

To the right.

It was good.

Above.

Below.

Forward.

Backward.

Every direction revealed perfection.

He sealed the edges of his world and struck his drum.

And so, the Living One—the first and the last—rejoiced.

For he had become one with his God,

and one among his seven angels,

in the completion of his perfect dream.



Monday, March 16, 2026

Reality, Free Will, and the Probability of Life


Reality seems to play tricks on us. Today I am here to talk about free will—or perhaps the lack thereof. By letting go of our assumptions, we can explore the very essence of reality itself. The question that pervades my mind is this: Does reality work on small scales for humans and our path through life? Does free will truly exist, or are our actions predetermined, set in stone at the beginning of time and space, at the birth of the universe?

No one truly knows the answers to these questions. Yet simply exploring and contemplating them brings life and light to my world. The fact that we—or I as an intelligent, self-aware individual—can think about such things here and now is remarkable in itself.

On the scale of particles such as light and electrons, their paths are calculated using probability amplitudes. Each path of a particle in a vacuum seems to have millions, if not billions, of possible trajectories it could travel when emitted from a source. These paths are calculated by adding together the contribution of each trajectory and then taking the square of the sum to identify the probability that a particle took a given path at a given time.

Some paths seem to cancel one another out, while others reinforce each other, raising or lowering the probability function. In the end, particles often move along straight paths that appear to behave like waves due to the cancellation and reinforcement of all those possible paths.

Does life work this way? Does our path through life resemble a probability amplitude function?

Each of us travels a path through life. Some paths zigzag. Some loop back as we make the same mistakes again and again. Others take what seems like a straight course toward their destination. Yet somehow we arrive where we are through a mixture of circumstance and choice.

Particles don’t make choices. They follow the laws of physics and the properties of the fundamental forces unless influenced by an outside source. Humans, however, experience something different—we perceive the act of choosing.

The best path in life is often said to be the path of least resistance. Yet resistance itself can build character and resilience, making us stronger in the long run. The flow of life can be compared to an electric current: it requires charge within us, a rate of flow—like amperage—and some resistance along the way to shape the outcome.

Is life like a coin flip, where some get heads and others get tails, as if statistics alone determines whether someone fails or succeeds in life’s journey? The game of statistics alone cannot possibly decide our fate. Instead, it may be our actions—or lack thereof—that work together like probability amplitudes in the subatomic world.

Some actions add together over time, increasing the probability of success. Others cancel out and lead nowhere. Some actions trap us in loops, repeating patterns that never quite move us closer to where we want to go.

Does fate or destiny play any role in this path through life?

Time itself is a strange construct of reality, and it is not uniform. Time does not act the same on all objects; it depends on their velocity relative to something else. This idea was famously explored by Albert Einstein through the theory of relativity.

Stay with me for a moment, because this connects to the idea of destiny.

If time effectively stops at the speed of light, then for light there is no passage of time between its emission and absorption. In a sense, the past, present, and future might exist together in a single timeless frame. Yet because we do not travel at such velocities, we perceive time in seconds, minutes, hours, days, and years.

If the past, present, and future exist simultaneously in some deeper sense of reality, does that mean the future has already happened and we merely observe it unfolding day by day? Are we observers moving slowly through a block of time that already exists?

Did the writing of this very essay already happen, and I am writing it now because some future version of myself has already done so? In other words, is the future preordained?

Unless humanity someday travels at such incredible velocities as space explorers, we may never truly know. For now, these ideas remain mostly in the realm of science fiction and philosophical thought.

Life contains an enormous number of variables. Perhaps life is not only about the individual, but about the collection of conditions that surround us. Where you were born, your race, your socioeconomic status during childhood—these things may shape the path available to you long before you even become aware of it.

Maybe it is not quantum mechanics or destiny that determines our path, but access to knowledge, opportunity, and resources. Or perhaps it is one’s will and determination to succeed that pushes a person forward against the odds.

But what happens when the will of one person collides with the will of another—like two particles smashing together in an accelerator?

Such collisions change the trajectory of both particles, and perhaps both people. One may redirect the other, or cancel the other’s momentum entirely.

Perhaps the coordinated efforts of a few can shape the fate of the many. The actions of others around us—near and far—change the probability of success or failure in our own lives. This suggests that our paths are influenced by countless interacting variables.

Like light passing through water, perhaps the goal is not to remain rigid and unchanging, but to bend without breaking. If we can adapt to the forces and variables around us, then maybe we can still guide our path through the ever-changing landscape of reality.

 Perhaps life is neither predetermined nor random, but something in between. Just as particles explore every possible path before settling into the most probable one, perhaps our lives unfold through a mixture of circumstance, choice, and interaction with others. Each decision we make adds to or subtracts from the probability of the life we eventually live. In this sense, destiny may not be a fixed road laid out before us, but a landscape of possibilities shaped by our actions, the actions of others, and the countless variables of the universe itself. If reality truly does work this way, then perhaps free will is not the power to control the entire path, but the ability to influence which of the many possible paths becomes the one we ultimately travel.


Saturday, March 14, 2026

A Forest Beneath Reality: The Living Fabric of the Universe


As I sit here on this warm March night, I think about the nature of the universe.  I was driving around town earlier today and a thought propagated in my mind, followed swiftly by an image in my mind.  I began toying with the concept in my mind for a few moments before a movie began playing in my head.  Quantum entanglement and the structure of the universe is a very perplexing topic.  



As I drove, I began to drift for a moment before coming back to reality, but nonetheless I was convinced that what projected in my mind made sense.  I began thinking of forests, like the Redwoods in California.  The forest is an interconnected web.  As one will see, the roots of each tree are interconnected like a large scale web.   As a function of time, the forest strengthens this web by transferring precious resources to one another as to help those around them.  This bond is what keeps the forest alive over large lengths of time and allows the trees to grow vertically and branch out toward the heavens.  The connections are strongest in the trees adjacent to one another yet the system is entangled across vast distances due to their interconnectedness.


In modern theoretical physics, ideas have emerged that suggest space itself may arise from patterns of quantum entanglement. Some physicists propose that spacetime is not a fundamental substance but something that emerges from deeper layers of quantum information. In this view, the connections between entangled particles may help define the geometry of the universe itself. Much like the hidden root systems of a forest bind the trees together beneath the soil, the unseen web of entanglement may bind reality together beneath the surface of spacetime.


According to astrophysics in the last several decades, theories emerge that state the universe operates as a hologram, a set of information on a two dimensional space is equivalent to the three dimensional space minus gravity.         



Quantum entanglement is the theory that particles are correlated with one another even across vast distances.  When one is measured, the correlated particle is also affected.  The closer the particles are, the stronger the bond between them.  If this is the case, then the entire universe is simply a web of entangled particles operating in unison across vast distances of space and time.  



To connect the holographic principle to entanglement is to know the very structure of the universe.  If entanglement is correct, it connects the two dimensional surface to the three dimensional world we live in.  It acts like the glue that connects the puzzle pieces together, without it the universe would fall apart literally.  

And so now we connect the analogy to the living, breathing universe.  Much like the redwood roots, entanglement connects the two dimensional surface together like a web woven together.  From there, three dimensional space can propagate from.  Whether it is the trunk, branches, and leaves or pieces of a 3d puzzle, entanglement then facilitates the propagation of three dimensional geometry.  In three dimensional bulk space, entanglement locks things into place transferring information, matter, and energy to form reality.  


Like the forest system, the universe may operate as one global quantum state. Information, energy, and matter are entangled, or glued together. The closer objects are to one another, the stronger their entangled state tends to be, although entanglement can persist across vast distances as well. Like the adjacent trees of a forest, qubits in a quantum system are deeply interconnected, such that the measurement of one directly affects those entangled with it.

To think of the Redwood Forest and the universe in similar terms—as a single system of information interconnected and woven together—is mind-blowing. Yet the nature of reality often reveals itself in ways that inspire awe.

The future of science is bright. The vision I had today helped bring these ideas into focus for me. I learn by building models in my mind. One can spend hours, days, weeks, or even months thinking about something with little progress, and then suddenly, in a moment when the mind enters a relaxed, flow state, the pieces begin to fit together.

To imagine the universe not as a random scattering of matter and energy, but as a vast system—one forest interconnected by an unseen web—is a powerful thought. In the end, the universe exists before us as conscious observers, inviting us to study it and to follow our deep curiosity wherever it leads. Perhaps that curiosity is what drives us to uncover the forest beneath reality:

The Living Fabric of the Universe.


Friday, March 13, 2026

Faith, Fanaticism, and the Human Conscience


Ethics—the very principles that guide and govern our conscious thoughts and actions. Take ethics away, and what remains is a person whose motives are selfish and misconstrued. As we dive deeper into this idea, one might say that religion plays a significant role in shaping our ethical behavior—or perhaps in revealing the absence of it. The world’s oldest religions span thousands of years and vast distances of space and time, yet we arrive here together in the present day. As we contemplate religion and its role in society, I invite you to ask one central question: Does ethics require religion?

Although I follow no single religion in my personal life, I find it important to maintain a relationship with the Creator. Whether the Creator plays an active role in our lives is a matter of individual perception. What one believes ultimately does not change the fact that humanity continues to search for meaning. I was raised in a Catholic household, yet I left those religious traditions behind as I searched for the meaning and origin of the Creator throughout my twenties and thirties.

Throughout my life, I have studied and practiced several religions. When I ponder the depths of history and culture, I think about the interactions of civilizations and the ways in which religions have blended with one another. Across human history, belief systems have borrowed ideas, adapted practices, and evolved through contact with other cultures. When Muslims traveled to India, Islam encountered Hinduism, contributing to the rise of devotional traditions such as the Bhakti and Sufi movements. From these interactions emerged a stronger emphasis on devotion to one God and a spiritual focus that transcended rigid labels. A famous figure who reflected this blending was the poet Kabir, who criticized the religious orthodoxy of both Islam and Hinduism and argued that God existed beyond human labels.

As individuals within society, we constantly interact with our environment. We study, listen, and communicate our thoughts, and those thoughts evolve over time as our experiences change. In the same way, our beliefs—religious or otherwise—develop throughout our lives. A well-rounded individual is someone who seeks to understand the beliefs of others, even if they ultimately disagree with them. As the saying goes, one should walk a mile in another person’s shoes before judging them.

This thought brings to mind a moment from my time teaching at Hephzibah High School. We were beginning Standard Five, the unit on Islam. I always enjoyed teaching about world religions because it gave me the opportunity to clear up misconceptions about different faiths. Yet I had one student who dropped out of the class rather than learn about Islam. I was genuinely surprised by this decision—both by the student and their parents—because studying culture, even when it is not our own, is essential to understanding the world around us. When we learn how others think and believe, we gain perspective that enriches our own journey through life.

Religious fanaticism refers to an extreme and uncompromising devotion to religious beliefs that leads individuals or groups to justify intolerance, violence, or rigid social control in the name of faith. It appears across religions and regions alike, often intertwined with politics, identity, and social conflict. Fanaticism usually involves several characteristics: an absolute certainty that one interpretation of religion is the only truth, intolerance toward the beliefs of others, the justification of violence or coercion, and the fusion of religion with political power. Although fanaticism does exist, it is important to remember that even the most devout believers often reject such extremist interpretations.

Yet we still find ourselves living in a world where religious fanaticism persists—whether in the Middle East, India, the United States, or elsewhere. The world is a melting pot of cultures and beliefs, yet some seek to stop the stirring spoon and instead overwhelm the pot with bitterness. The hatred that results from such fanaticism often leads to oppression and violence against innocent people. But for what purpose? To take the life of one innocent person devoid of law and justice is like taking the life of all humanity. This echoes a well-known teaching attributed to the Prophet Muhammad and the Qur’an: that the killing of a single innocent soul is as though one has killed all of humankind.

I believe that many religions emerged during times when society needed guidance and moral structure. Whether divine inspiration came through dreams, visions, or profound spiritual insight, the message repeated across traditions often emphasizes the same goal—peace. Yet the dream of a peaceful world often feels distant, for we live in a world marked by violence, hatred, and oppression. Violence breeds hatred, hatred breeds oppression, and so the cycle continues throughout the epochs of history.

Today, however, we may stand at a crossroads. A growing majority of people believe in coexistence and mutual understanding, while a smaller minority continues to promote division and fanaticism. Ethics and morality know no single faith. They live within our hearts and minds and reside in the deepest part of our human essence. To claim that one faith stands above all others seems primitive in nature, for none of us share the same experiences. It is precisely those experiences that shape who we are and what we believe.

So I ask again: Does ethics require religion, or can ethics stand on its own—spreading its wings and soaring freely within the hearts and minds of every human being?


Was the Dropping of the Atom Bomb Historically and Morally Justified?



As World War II progressed, and the Allies defeated the Germans in the European campaign, the war subsequently became solely focused on the Pacific Theatre.   Every inch of land and territory gained by the U.S. Army and Navy did not come without significant loss of life.  The boys were tired, and demoralized by the harsh reality of kamikaze warfare that the Japanese military implemented in their military strategy.  Little did the Japanese know, a secret weapon was being developed back at home in the United States.  Albert Einstein’s famous E=MC2, that was derived in 1905, stated that mass multiplied by the speed of light squared would culminate in mass being converted into pure energy.  This energy would be released as heat in the form of x-rays and gamma rays which are the two most energetic light waves in the electromagnetic spectrum.  Otto Hahn and Fritz Strassman were the two scientists who were able to make a breakthrough on nuclear fission in December of 1938.  The isotope Uranium-235 was experimentally proven to be a sufficient element capable of sustaining a nuclear fission process because in order to create a chain reaction, the nucleus of an atom must be bombarded with a neutron in the core.  Since the isotope had an odd number of pairs of protons and neutrons in the nucleus, it had one free neutron which when bombarded with the neutron from an outside source would cause a chain reaction, and a subsequent splitting of the atom.  “A more humdrum way of remembering the difference between the two types of Uranium is by focusing on the nature of the even and odd numbers.  Since U238 had 238 particles in its nucleus, everything was paired off; but since U235 has an odd number of particles in its nucleus, that means there are 46 pairs of protons and 71 pairs of neutrons- and one extra neutron.”(Bodanis, 281)    After a letter from Einstein hit Washington D.C. in early 1939, which urged the development of an atomic research program, the United States took a more serious role in forming a government project in which to undergo such a production process culminating in the atom bomb.  As a result, the government began a nationwide secret project referred to as the Manhattan Project.  The government project took place in five main areas of the country under the direction of General Groves whose impressive leadership role in the construction of the Pentagon won him the job in this subsequent project.  The main areas of use were: Washington D.C., Oak Ridge, Tennessee, Chicago, Illinois, Hanford, Washington, and Los Alamos, New Mexico.  Oak Ridge, Chicago, and Hanford were three sites used strictly for creating the enriched uranium bomb.  Chicago University was used by physicists to test the theory of E=MC2 by conducting experiments on nuclear fission ran by famous Enrico Fermi, who later would be given the patent for designing the nuclear reactor, while the other two sites were areas in which the uranium was processed in much larger quantities for the making of the bomb.  The strategic location of both sites was important; both were along a large river to allow for the cooling of the reactor cores.  After enough uranium, and later plutonium which was made in Hanford towards the end of the Project, the fissionable metals were transferred to Los Alamos where J. Robert Oppenheimer, and a group of physicists, engineers, and mathematicians were to devise a plan in which to detonate the bomb.  The first bomb would be set off by conventional artillery, while the second would be an implosion.  The mathematics of the methods of how to set off the bomb and the approximate height was devised by the arguably the greatest mathematician of his time, John von Neumann.  When the bomb was dropped, there were two small holes around the middle where wires had been tugged out of it as it dropped away, which was the first arming system.  When the bomb reached 7,000 feet above the ground, a barometric switch was turned, priming the second arming system.  The bomb was just ten feet long and two and a half feet wide, but what was inside this small speck in the sky was the power of the sun.  Radio waves bounce off the ground detailing how far from the ground the bomb was.  At just under 2,000 feet Neumann calculated that this was the ideal height at which to detonate the uranium bomb.  “ An electric impulse lit cordite sacs, producing a conventional artillery blast.  A small part of the purified uranium was now pushed forward down a gun barrel that was actually inside the bomb.”(Bodanis,164)  The gun was a scaled-down model of the U.S. Navy weapon which was just one-fifth the weight of the conventional weapon.  The first uranium segment traveled about four feet within the gun barrel, and then impacted the remaining bulk of uranium.  There were a number of stray neutrons loose inside it, which helped induce the beginning of the chain reaction.  Because neutrons have no charge, they were not affected by the electrons of the outer casing of the atoms, and were able to freely enter the nucleus of the uranium atom.  “The nucleus normally blocked outside particles from entering, for it was seething with positively charged protons.  But since neutrons have no electric charge their invisible to the protons as well.  The arriving neutrons pushed into the nucleus, overbalancing it; causing it to oscillate and subsequently split.”(Bodanis, 165)  This reaction broke what we called the nucleus force.  Gluons which hold together the nucleus of an atom are ripped apart, causing a chain reaction in which mass disappears and being replaced by pure energy.  The entire chain reaction sequence was over within a few millionths of a second.  The bomb took 43 seconds to descend from 31,000 feet to 1,900, but the reaction triggered by nuclear fission took all but a fraction of a second.  “The chain reaction went through 80 “generations” of doubling before it ended.  By the last few moments of this, the segments of broken uranium nuclei were so abundant, and moving so fast, that they started heating up the metal around them.”(Bodanis, 166)  Once there was no more matter to be converted over to energy, this energy was being transformed into heat energy because the speed of the uranium nuclei were moving at speeds close to the speed of light and were rubbing against resting metal.  This heat energy reaches temperatures equivalent to that of the sun.  As the heat moves up and goes through the steel around the uranium, as well as the several thousand pound casing of the bomb, but then it pauses.  The energy of the explosion must be released, so x-rays push themselves outwards in all directions.  As the energy is used, and the fragments try to cool themselves, and the x-ray bombardment is over, the heat ball resumes its outward spread. This is now a site to see, as normal photons fill the sky, seeming as though a new star has been created just above the surface of the earth, and the bomb burns for a fraction of a second, taking a few more to empty itself out.  This new destructive force kills tens of thousands of Japanese citizens instantaneously.  “And when that great mushroom cloud appeared, E=MC2’s first work on planet Earth was done.”(Bodanis,169) 

                Countless individuals from intellectuals to the common man have their opinions on whether the bombs should have been dropped on Nagasaki and Hiroshima, but in the end, history cannot be changed.  Hindsight in the eyes of society is always 20/20, but swift and deliberate decisions had to be taken during a time of stress.  After the demise of FDR, Truman took command of not only the nation, but the entire Armed Forces of the United States.  Inevitably, Truman’s decision as Commander in Chief, affected the outcome of the war, but was his decision to drop the bomb morally and historically justified?  In my opinion, the atomic bomb was not needed to end the war for three distinct reasons:  The Potsdam Proclamation in theory could have ended the war via a peace agreement allowing Japan to implement a constitutional monarchy and rid the country of its militarism if both sides would have come to an agreement.  In addition, according to several reports from military personnel close to Truman, the war could have been over by November of 1945 regardless of the use of the Atomic Bomb, and finally Truman’s decision directly caused the demise of over 200,000 Japanese civilians whose effects from the bomb were felt not just in the short term but the long term as well.  As a result of careful historical and moral judgment, one can see that the dropping of the atomic bomb could have been avoided, but Truman wished to prove American military superiority over Russia in seeing who could force Japan to surrender first and subsequently decide their ultimate fate.

                At the Potsdam Conference, the three distinguished leaders of the Allies, Winston Churchill, Joseph Stalin, and President Harry Truman met in Potsdam, Germany to decide the fate of the war torn Europe, Germany in particular, as well as discuss objectives in the Pacific Theatre.   The leaders pondered on concepts on how to end the war in the Pacific Theatre to end the bloodshed of American soldiers which was taking massive casualties in the island hopping campaign.  If the Allies, more specifically Truman, would have allowed the Japanese state to surrender under the condition that they could keep a Constitutional Monarchy, but end Japanese militarism and imperialism in Asia.   This ideology in theory would have appeased the peace party as well as the emperor especially if Stalin were to have signed the Potsdam Proclamation.  “The promise of preserving the monarchical system might have prompted members of the peace party to intercede to end the war before the first atomic bomb, although there was no guarantee that their argument would have silenced the war party.”(Hasegawa, 15)  If Stalin would have been invited to sign the Potsdam Proclamation, it would have inevitably forced the Japanese government and war machine to surrender and sign the document because they could no longer use The Soviet Union as a mediator between the Allies and the Japanese state although it was evident that even if Stalin was invited, he would have never agreed to such an agreement due to his militaristic nature to join the Pacific conflict.  Although the Potsdam Conference really did not do much in terms of creating an agreement to end the war peacefully, it really showed great promise towards allowing the Japanese to uphold their form of government, while eliminating the imperialistic military of Japan.  “Undoubtedly, a promise to retain the monarchy would have strengthened the peace party’s receptivity to the Potsdam ultimatum.  It would have led to intense discussion much earlier among Japanese policymakers on whether or not to accept the Potsdam terms, and it would have considerably diminished Japan’s reliance on Moscow’s mediation,”(Hasegawa, 13)  As long as Japan submitted to full unconditional surrender which according to Japanese tradition and military culture would be dishonorable, the Potsdam ultimatum was completely ineffective for both sides because of the stubborn nature of military leaders.

After Stalin’s Soviet Union joined the Pacific Theatre on the side of the Allies, the ability to make war and defend their land became much more difficult for Japan.  As a result of the Soviets entering the war, it made the use of the atomic bomb unnecessary for the United States.  Because the Japanese policymakers saw the Soviet Union as a means of mediation between the imperial nation and the United States, it all but ended Japan’s ability to continue talks with the Allied forces.

 “The importance to Japan of Soviet neutrality is crucial in this context.  Japan relied on Soviet neutrality both militarily and diplomatically.  Diplomatically, Japan pinned its last hope on Moscow’s mediation for the termination of the war.  Once the Soviets entered the war, Japan was forced to make a decision on the Potsdam terms, and the Japanese military strategy was based on Soviet neutrality.”(Hasegawa, 17)   

In addition, this created a two front war for the Japanese forces, which began to choke the Japanese military forces from the West and the East.  Because the Japanese refused to give in to the Potsdam ultimatum, the Soviets used this opportunity to begin its quest of expansion into the Far East.  As a result of Japanese vulnerability of both fronts, the Soviets were able to take advantage, and could have taken over places such as “Manchuria, southern Sakhalin, the entire Kurils, and possibly half of Korea.”(Hasegawa, 17)  As one can see, Japan had no choice, but to surrender because Japanese forces were to too weak both militarily and economically to make war.  Because of the Soviet’s sheer military strength, the U.S. needed to drop the atom bomb not to stop the Japanese from making war, but to stop the Soviets from moving any further into Asia, and becoming an influence in a region in which the U.S. wished to control.

Finally, the atom bomb was simply unnecessary simply because of the significant devastation it caused the people of Nagasaki and Hiroshima.  As a result of the United States Strategic Bombing Survey, “revisionist historians concluded that Japan would have surrendered before November 1, 1945, without the atom bombs.”(Hasegawa, 16)  On top of the total destruction and the killing of a quarter million people in the Strategic Bombing raids, the atomic bombs dropped on the two Japanese cities subsequently killed another 150,000-200,000 people.  On top of the utter destruction to human, economic, and the cities themselves, the long term effects of radioactivity and radiation poison leads to long term infection, disease, and in many cases cancer from the exposure to high energy light and particles that are prevalent in the lower atmosphere as a result of the bomb.

Although the atomic bomb was certainly not justified, one must take a look at the use of deception the Japanese empire used to play with the mind of America.  By deception, Japan was able to plan a surprise attack on Pearl Harbor, Hawaii, as well as, simultaneously attacking strategic points in its island hopping campaign in South-east Asia. 

 In an address to Congress after the attack on Pearl Harbor, Franklin D. Roosevelt says, “It will be recorded that the distance of Hawaii from Japan makes it obvious that the attack was deliberately planned many days or even weeks ago.  During the intervening time the Japanese Government has deliberately sought to deceive the U.S. by false statements and expressions of hope for continued peace.  The attack yesterday on the Hawaiian Islands has caused severe damage to American naval and military forces.  I regret to tell you that very many American lives have been lost.  In addition American ships have been reported torpedoed on the high seas between San Francisco and Honolulu.  Yesterday the Japanese Government also launched an attack against Malaya.  Last night Japanese forces attacked Hong Kong, Guam, the Philippines, and Wake Island.  And this morning, the Japanese attacked Midway Island.”(Roosevelt, 34)  In turn, the Japanese deceived the American government and military with false diplomatic talks because in the end they had their own agenda.  This use of deceit against America gave the government a justified reason to cripple the Japanese military as a result of the sneak attack on Pearl Harbor.  At the same time, the Japanese invaded American owned islands in the South Pacific which in turn, created an even greater gateway for American military intervention because of the military tactics of Japan on the civilian population in the regions in which they occupied.  In the end, one could see the dropping of the atomic bomb to be justified from a political and military perspective, but as a civilian you are left vulnerable to the actions of one’s government and their political and military agenda.

As one can see, the use of the atomic bomb was justified in Truman’s mind not only because he felt it was justified, but also because of the popular belief and ideology of the American people was to attack.  Even with taking this in a purely logical manner, the killing of roughly 300,000 civilians in Japan is much too barbaric for the Japanese military killing of 3,000 in Pearl Harbor.  In conclusion, this goes to show the true hunger for power.  Truman in my opinion, made an irrational decision with his power because the decisions he made were based on anger, fear, and resentment which was inflicted on a large citizen population.  In the end, because of government and military imperialism and corruption, war tends to affect the citizen population more than those who have truly created the conflict.


Bodanis, David. E=mc2: A Biography of the World’s Most famous Equation. The Berkeley Publishing Group. New York. 2000.

Roosevelt, D. Franklin. Words That Changed the World: 25 Speeches That Shaped the World We Live In.  Pg 34. BlueRed Press Ltd. New York. 2010.

Madaras, Larry. Taking Sides: Clashing Views in U.S. History Since 1945. Pg. 15-22.  McGraw-Hill Higher Education. New York. 2008. 3rd Edition. 


Thursday, March 12, 2026

Conservative Principles and Government Spending



Benjamin Franklin once said, “A penny saved is a penny earned.” The preservation of money is often viewed as a core principle of conservative ideology. To live within one’s means and avoid unnecessary debt are common refrains used by conservatives to emphasize what they believe is the proper way to live.

Although I do not agree with all of his core principles, Ronald Reagan often spoke about reducing wasteful government spending. The logic behind this view is straightforward: governments should exercise caution with spending, avoid large debt burdens, and protect the hard-earned money of taxpayers.

Frugality is a virtue. A glutton for money is someone who lives beyond his or the country’s means and wastes precious resources on unnecessary expenditures. According to free-market conservative thought, savings and capital accumulation are essential to long-term prosperity. Economists such as Milton Friedman argued that responsible financial behavior and market incentives tend to lead toward sustained, long term economic success.  

After examining recent expenditures, I understand the need to spend last minute funds in a use it or lose it situation, but I am dumbfounded on the frivolous spending by Hegseth and the Department of War on food and material items not used for efforts related to the military.  One hopes that the food expenditures went to food services to the entire military to nourish them.  As one takes a closer look, the food expenditures were only a fraction of the money spent, most of it went to thousands of military contractors like Lockheed Martin, Raytheon, and Boeing.  Hegseth spent $50 billion in September, a fraction of the 960 billion spent on the defense budget.   

Yet I find myself conflicted. I do not wish to question my government’s existence or its purpose, but I do question its ethics and fiscal responsibility. As I examine the budget of the Department of Defense, I often see spending that appears lavish and far beyond what seems necessary for the defense of the nation. At times it feels as though careful consideration of taxpayer money has been lost, while attention is directed away from helping those in this country who genuinely need assistance. To spend millions on excess while cutting programs that feed hungry children feels like a disservice to the American people at home.

As a fiscally conservative man, I try my hardest to live within my means and to practice frugality while pursuing the American dream. The principles of conservative ideology are a foundation upon which I stand. A nation, like a household, can only survive through careful and disciplined stewardship of its resources. When those who claim these principles justify actions that appear to defy them, it leaves me uncertain about what to think.

In the end, I return to Franklin’s simple wisdom: a penny saved is a penny earned.


Wednesday, March 11, 2026

Love Lost Is Love Learned


Love Lost is Love Learned

As I sit here, my eyes draw to a close and I re-emerge in my mind at a time and place in the past.  Before me is Sherman, one of my friends I met and am now standing before at the gym, as he instills his 60 years of knowledge and experience into my young mind.  As I contemplate this moment in time, I think about the highs and lows of life.  At this moment, I had reached yet another low point in my life.  It had been a few weeks since the sudden and abrupt end to a relationship that in my mind, was only beginning.  And so, begins the story, “Love Lost is Love Learned.”


With this introduction, let’s rewind back time even further to the beginning of this loop of love in my life.  As this story continues, we emerge at an exact date in my life, October 8th, 2017.  I had been living in Georgia for almost 2 years.  Although I had dated around for some time, I had not met a woman that had managed to catch my eye and keep my attention, then she arrived.  On October 8th, 2017 I went on my first date with my soon to be girlfriend.  It was a Thursday evening.  I had gone to work and to the gym and was preparing myself to go on yet another first date.  Because I love Japanese hibachi and was craving it, I suggested we go to a Hibachi Steak House, and she quickly obliged.  She was no ordinary woman, and at first sight I knew this.  With her soft features, blue eyes, and intelligent mind, she had won me over before the night came to a close.  She was a doctor you see, a resident at the Medical College of Georgia now owned and run by Augusta University.  She impressed me that night at dinner as she spoke of her experiences that day at work and the story that she told.  As the night came to a close, I walked her to her car.  As we stood before her car, we spoke about a topic that we stumbled upon, “Why is it so quiet after a snowstorm?  Is it because sound waves travel slower in cold air?,” were the questions we bounced back and forth.  I have no idea how we got on that topic, but as the dialogue between us came to a silent end, I asked one more question, “I would like to see you again.”

The outcome of that statement is apparent as that first date turned to a budding relationship as time unfolded.  We went on our second date that Saturday, two days later.  I suggested we take a walk Saturday afternoon along the Augusta Canal so we could talk more and get to know each other.  As I waited for her to arrive that Saturday afternoon, I again was filled with butterflies.  This beautiful, intelligent woman decided to give me another shot was the thought that continued to loop endlessly as I awaited her arrival to the parking lot.  She finally arrived and we were off.  As we crossed the bridge to the canal and entered the walkway running parallel, we continued to hit it off just as we did at dinner on Thursday.  We paused for a bit to sit on a cliff and watch as a Boy Scout group practiced rappelling down the cliff face.  As we sat on the cliff, she spoke about her experiences from medical school and university.  She took two trips to Africa: one to Kenya and another country in Africa that cannot recall at this moment in time.  Sitting on the cliff reminded her of her hiking trip to the summit of a mountain in Africa, and so as I was terrified about sitting on a cliff ledge, I listened intently to the words that flowed from her lips.  This young, Syrian girl had seen and experienced so much of the world, and now she was sitting before me telling me about it.  I had finally found a woman with such a unique story and had persevered through a lot to get to where she was in that present moment.  


As we exited the seated session on the cliff’s edge, we began walking again on the dirt path along the canal.  While walking and talking, I saw off in the distance a woman riding a bike towards us.  As she got closer, I recognized the face of the woman cruising along towards us, it was my boss and friend, Leslie Wright.  Leslie is a retired teacher who now owns a kayak rental business along the Augusta Canal.  I started working for her earlier in the year after taking a kayaking trip on my day off after working the Master’s Tournament the previous April.  On the ride back to the starting point that day, she offered me a job.  No sooner after I recognized her, she reciprocated the acknowledgement and soon conversation followed.  I greeted Leslie and introduced my date to her.  Looking back on this moment, it could not have come at a better time.  Leslie is a great woman and we developed a strong bond in the 6 months we had known each other, and to this day I see her as a second mother to me here in Georgia.  Without solicitation, Leslie boasted about how much of a gentleman I was and how I had the strength of 10 men when it came to carrying kayaks.  Annie laughed out loud, but I knew inside she was happy to hear that I was a good, genuine guy, and I suppose the review of my character could not have come with better timing or from a better person than Leslie Wright.  From this day, a relationship emerged between her and I. 

At that point in my life, I had learned a lot about what it is I was looking for in a relationship.  I wanted a woman who had the attributes I lacked, and that woman was now a big part of my life.  She was patient, paid close attention to what was important to me, hard -working, and most of all was a woman of faith.  I made the promise to honor that faith and spend the time to build a real relationship built on a real connection.  I honestly have no idea how I did it, but I had won over the woman that I thought was the answer to my persistent prayers to G-d asking him to bring a good woman into my life.  

Neither she nor I had been in very many relationships in our lives up until this point.  I had only had 2 girlfriends in my life, and she only had 1 boyfriend.  We took things slow for many reasons, but our busy work and studying schedules were the main reasons for why the flame was able to grow slowly.  I was working, coaching, and going to school at night, while she worked 12 hours a day, sometimes 7 days a week.  I learned to appreciate the quality of time together over quantity and she taught me to appreciate the moment.  As time would progress, she taught me it was ok to love and let love in again.  

But the title of this blog is Love Lost is Loved Learn, so like many things we cherish in our life, one moment they are here and gone the next.  Although our relationship had many great moments that made a deep impression on me, I realize in hindsight it was not meant to be.  One summer evening while sitting under the stars at Clarks Hill Lake, she looked at me and said, “You don’t have to wait any more to ask me anymore Sean.”  Two weeks later, a small fight over something extremely minor, ended with her ending things abruptly and completely.  Needless to say, I was devastated and confused, but nonetheless, I listened to what she had to say.  

What she said was very true, but it broke my heart to know that a person could hold things in for so long without saying anything.  She grew up in a culture and family dynamic that was completely different from mine.  In a Middle Eastern Home, it is rude to deny food when it is offered.  On Christmas Eve, her father made salmon.  Up until this point in my life, I had never liked any fish that anyone has cooked for me, and so I told Annie that I would try it, but I may not like it.  That act which seemed so innocent and honest in the moment, struck a chord with her.  Although I ate the entire salmon and it was really good, she never forgot that moment.  We both grew up in a reality that was words apart, and I think over time it created a barrier in how we perceive the world and that barrier manifested itself ever so more over time.  She expressed that I had a regimented schedule because of my job and l liked to go to bed early, which would never work if we had children.  She went on to say that we had different kinds of friends that we liked to be around even though I had never met any of her friends from home and she had only ever met Abraham.  Although her words cut deep, to her they were real and true.  She told me she had no remorse for telling me what she told me two weeks prior and then going back on it.  She said she had every right to change her mind, and it was the sad truth.  

At the moment, I was sad, heartbroken, confused, and so much more, but as I look back at this experience, I think about all that I have learned about myself, relationships, and what I needed to improve about myself as time moved forward.  I learned that I needed to step out of my comfort zone and to live in the moment.  I learned to do things that made me feel extremely uncomfortable because I needed to find the person she said I never was, but in reality, I knew that I’ve been hiding that person from the world my whole life.  That person is afraid of letting go of the what if’s, and just experiencing the moment and life for what it is.  I learned that in the end a good girl isn’t always what you need, and the end isn’t always the end, but can be a new beginning.

As we re-emerge to that time, person, and place from the beginning of the story, the conversation with Sherman is now alive within the dream in my mind.  Sherman knew how heart- broken I was, for he saw our relationship grow overtime during our evening sessions at the gym.  As Sherman looked at me in the gym that Saturday morning, he looked me in the eye and said, “The hardest step in any journey in life is the first step.  It is all over after that.  You gotta take that first step and keep going because you are going to do great things.”


  I took a trip to Charlotte a few weeks later with my friend James and did just that.  I took that first step off that 100+ ft ledge at the US National Whitewater Center and faced my fears for the first time in a long time.  In that first moment of free fall my mind and body were in utter bliss and once again I knew what it felt like to feel alive again.  

It is in those most trivial moments in our lives, those moments we are left feeling lost and without repair, that we truly find out what we are made of.  As I sit here tonight writing these very words, I think about what life would be like if I gave up on love entirely from this experience, and what I see is sadness, for life without love is not worth living.  I think about the ways I can improve as a partner moving forward because even though one may not agree with the words of one’s previous partners, their perception of reality holds weight in the world in which you live in.  I think about all the things I would have done differently if I could just go back in time.  In thinking all these things, I realized by reflecting on my flaws of the past, I can improve my future self, so that I may be a better man and a better partner for the woman I am destined to be with.