Life Itself

 As the leaves fall, tumble in the wind, and grow green once again, so does life.  As I sit here and ponder life, I can't help but connect life, the human experience, with that of nature.  The caterpillar lives, grows into a cocoon, then sprouts into a beautiful monarch butterfly.  The process of life will leave you tussling in your mind the grand scheme of things, yet we continue on in search of purpose, meaning to this grand life we live.  The ups and downs, highs and lows, teach us many things about ourselves and others, but it is only the future, the Creator, and destiny that know all that is to come yet we would pay a price to know it before it upfolds before our very eyes.  Like a tree, we grow strong roots, a foundation, from which to grow and grow you will if you keep pressing on for the sky is the limit.  Grow towards the light of the future and let go of the darkness of the past.  Life itself will tear you down totally, but emptiness inside is only short lived if you dig deep and don’t succumb to the depths of your inner most destructive thoughts.  

What is shame, says the philosopher to himself?  To feel shame is to identify that you are bad, terrible, humiliated, unworthy of praise, but what is life without such measures of failure.  To rise to the top like a phoenix from the ashes, shame is overcome, replaced by feelings of empathy, love, and trust in others and oneself.  The cycles of life are like that of nature, forever in flux, constantly changing, vibrating and resonating with the inner-self.  To remain stuck in one train of thought is to die inside, for without change our mind begins to fixate and anxiety fills the space that is our mind.  

Am i crazy, am i foolish to consider life’s failures as the reconciliation of self, yet to find meaning only comes in hindsight.  To give up when you fail in front of the world is not something I will do, life grows anew over time.  That monarch butterfly flies high in the forest, lifting itself up with every flutter of its wing, leaving behind its old self and starting new.  At the same time, one must stay grounded in logic and reason, and hold at bay the emotions and disillusionments that will ruin us all.  Leave behind the cancerous people, thoughts, and actions that will tear you down and slowly steal your life light.  The empath in myself can relate, for once upon a time I was dead inside, going through the motions.  Like the oceans waves, the tide of life moves in and moves out, constantly cresting and troughing,  one must keep pressing on for at the end of the day it all evens out, the good, the bad, and the ugly.

Life is all about self-reflection.  The ability to look at oneself outside of oneself seems like an insurmountable task, yet what comes from it is sheer relief.  To look at oneself so deeply, is to know thyself intimately.  To know why we do the things we do and why we need to change is to grow towards that light of introspection.  Once we know ourselves and what we must do to change and grow, we can move higher up the tree of life and branch out to help others in their path of life.  The beauty and desolation of life is worth sharing, we must share both in order to help the future generations learn how to live and grow.

In the end, it is only you who can help find oneself through life’s triumphs, failures, and disillusionments.  To learn to stay grounded in reality is of the utmost importance in life itself.  To shape the future is to learn from the past, not change it.  The arrow of time may loop from time to time, but it vectors in the forward direction, so leave the past behind and the shame of past transgressions with it.  Life itself will break you down, leaving one on their hands and knees praying to the most high, but it can't break you if your will is stronger than the negative thoughts in your head.